Page 32 of My Fake Fiancé

I chuckle. "Hey," I say back. I keep my hands resting on her thighs, a sensation beginning to form in my abdomen but I can control myself, for now.

"Thanks for talking me down today, I don't normally run out of a room crying. I mean, yes, it's happened before but I try not to make a habit of it. Oh, I mean me bursting into tears, I'm not sure I've run out of a room before but it's possible, my mom likes to remind me how dramatic I was as a child. And thanks for taking me to Benny's bar. It was delicious and everyone was so nice and welcoming. We should definitely go there again. I want to try more of that menu. Well, I also want more chicken strips but I'll try new things too." She pauses. "Sorry, rambling." She waves her hand as if dismissing her ramblings but I’ve started to enjoy them.

"Juliana..." I start but hesitate when she looks at me with her tired yet excited eyes. Without realizing what I'm doing, I lean into her, wrapping my hand behind her neck and pulling her down to press our lips firmly together.

She hesitates at first but soon she is kissing me back. Her lips are soft and I lean into her while pulling her thighs down closer to me so she's sitting perfectly in my lap. Her hands slide across my chest touching me softly and then they slip down and begin to tug at my shirt, I oblige and lift it over my head.

I lift her up and stand up, letting out an embarrassingly primal growl as she wraps her legs around me and I feel her mouth open to deepen the kiss. I feel her tongue brush over my bottom lip as I bring us into the bedroom. I set her down on the bed keeping her legs around my waist as I lean down with her.

I pull away from our kiss and look down at her. We are both breathing heavily. I look down at her and I feel guilty for some reason but the animalistic lust inside me pushes me to continue. I hold her face gently in my hands and kiss her breathless. Her hand slides over my chest and down. But something inside me makes me grab it before it hits its mark.

"Juli..." I groan, my voice heavy with lust and longing but something else is there too, regret?

Chapter 32

Juliana

"Juli..." I hear him say and lean back breathing heavily. His voice sounded regretful. My cheeks flush with embarrassment and I can't look at him. He is the one who kissed me first, why is he pushing me away now?

"I'm sorry. God, I want to. I really do." He mumbles, then lets go of my hand. I move back on the bed getting out from under him and look everywhere but at him, pulling my legs to my chest.

"This is awkward." I chuckle nervously, trying to lighten the mood but I don't feel like laughing. I want to crawl under the covers and hide, from him and from everyone else. Instead of facing the awkward situation in front of me, I stare at the wall across from the bed and try to pretend it isn’t happening.

I hear him laugh to humor me, but his laugh has no joy in it and it does nothing to erase my embarrassment.

"Juli," he says my name again before he pauses. When he doesn't continue right away, I peek at him and he is staring at me.

"I'm sorry," I say and he smiles sadly which makes me frown. Why is he sad? Wait, he said he wanted to, didn't he? Wanted to what? Keep going? I shake my head trying to brush away the thoughts and he gives me a strange look. I must look insane arguing with myself in my head.

"Juli," he begins again and the way he keeps saying my name makes me want to scream. "I... I like you. I like you." He repeats and I'm about to tell him I like him too but he holds up his hand to stop me. "No, let me finish." He waits until I nod then he continues. "I like you. I have always liked you. First, as friends when we grew up together. Well, you're a bit younger so I guess I grew up then I watched you grow up." I give him a disapproving look and he winces. "Yeah, okay that didn't come out right. I'm not good at this. Okay, so yes, I like you. It started just as friends but I’ve realized that now it’s developed into a type of like that goes beyond friendship. I'm not to the point of fiancée liking yet but who knows." He pauses to take a breath and I jump in quickly.

“Kurt,” I say as I put my hand over his. “We don’t have to do this tonight. It’s been a really stressful day.” Kurt chuckles and nods. I smile at him, noticing his eyelids starting to flutter as he gets tired. “Also you’re definitely a little drunk. So I am going to apologize for almost taking advantage of you.”

Kurt’s burst of laughter makes me laugh as well. I squeeze his hand and get off the bed. I grab his arm and haul him off the bed too. He stumbles a bit but I am able to catch him and he leans against me.

“Where are we going?” Kurt asks. I lead him to the bathroom and set him on the edge of the bathtub, making sure he’s steady before releasing him and going to the stand-alone shower. I turn it on then grab his fresh towel out of the cabinet and hang it beside the shower. “Do I smell that bad?” Kurt teases me when he realizes what I’m doing.

“Honestly? Yes, it’s not horrible but you smell like Benny’s bar, and no offense to him but it’s time for a deep clean.” I stick my hand in the shower and feel that the temperature is decently warm. I dry my hand off. “Okay, I will go grab your pajamas for you. Are you okay to shower?”

“Yes,” Kurt stands up. He wobbles a little bit and I make a move to go to his side but he puts his hand up to stop me. “I’m fine. I’ve got this.”

“Okay, I’ll just stay in the bedroom. Holler if you need anything.” I turn to leave but Kurt reaches out and touches me gently. I turn back to face him. “Yes?’

“Thank you,” Kurt says, then drops his arm to his side. I nod and give a small smile in acknowledgment. “And I’m sorry. For tonight, it kind of got out of hand.”

“Don’t worry about it.” I offer another smile. “I was right there with you. Anyway, go shower. I’ll be right outside.” I say then exit the bathroom, shutting the door behind me. I hear him stumbling around for a minute then hear the shower door open and close. I turn on the TV to at least pretend like I’m doing something other than dwelling on this whole day then I sit down on the bed and send a text to Tatyana.

Juliana:We just made out…

Tatyana responds almost immediately.

Tatyana: What?!?!?!?

Tatyana: Tell me everything

I grin down at my phone. Part of me feels giddy from what happened and what Kurt confessed but another part of me is dwelling on the fact that he pulled away. I chew on my lip thinking about how to respond to Tatyana.

Juliana: Long story short - we had our housewarming party, Kurt unknowingly hired Callum’s band, Callum sang a really inappropriate song about me, and I fell apart

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