Page 26 of Of Gods and Pain

She sounds so tired. Weak. What is he doing to her? She’s having the essence sucked from her and still asking me to respect her wishes.

I want to wring her fucking neck and bruise her permanently. Then fuck her in front of a mirror. Every day. So she can see the evidence of my touch while I claim her. I want to mark every inch of her body in my cum. When I’m done, her soul will beg for my fucked up version of love. There will be no question that she is mine. Never again will she tell me to stay away.

But until then, I don’t have a choice.

I didn’t tell you before…well, before. I love you. I will slaughter every motherfucking being in this realm to get you back. My guard would find themselves meeting the gods. I don’t give a single fuck if Andras comes after us. Just say the word, and we will find you.

Not a breath passes before she answers.

I’m rolling my eyes at you. Do not kill anyone and do not come to me. Promise me, Em.

I grit my teeth, my fists clenching at my sides. I will kill her if she lets herself die just to spare us.

Fine.

I shudder at my harsh tone, wishing I could just set my emotions aside and be what she needs right now.

I must go; I love all of you so much. Be there for each other and stay strong. For me.

She’s gone.

Again.

I walk outside and lean on my balcony railing, breathing in the misty air. I’m conflicted. I want to help her…I want to go to her, find her, and tear Andras’s head off with my teeth, so I can drink in the sweet taste of revenge.

But I want to listen to her. This is the second time she’s begged us not to come for her…she made me promise. I huff, shaking my head. Why should that promise mean anything? She lied to us when she left. I can do the same.

“I know what you’re thinking,” Casmir’s voice startles me, but I force down my reaction. “You can’t, Em.”

I turn slowly, letting him see the raging storm circulating through me. His brows twitch, but he doesn’t look away.

“Are you telling me as my friend?” I step forward, clasping my hands behind my back. “Or as my prince?” He breaks my gaze then, looking over my shoulder. He bites his lip, searching my face for something I can’t give him right now.

Nodding, he raises his chin and slides a blank mask over his features. “As your prince, I’m ordering you to stay in Anloria. You will yield to Nell’s requests.” My jaw clenches, and a white hot, rushing sensation travels through my veins.

I want to yell. I want to tell the prince to go fuck himself; that I resign from my position. Tell him that I will no longer bow to his will.

But I won’t. He’s the better of us, and I know he’s right. Even if that doesn’t quench the boiling urge I have to leave this place behind and find her. He’s right.

Movement draws my attention down, where Xamira slides through Casmir’s parted legs and sits in front of him. She looks up at me, disapproval in her gaze.

“Don’t start with me. I know damn well you want to go to her, too.” She blinks, giving no other indication of her response.

Suddenly I’m exhausted. My eyes are heavy, my body feels limp, and if I have to speak one more time today, I might actually burn the fucking castle down. Cas shifts, noticing my mood.

He raises a hand, grazing my arm as he gives me the smallest of smiles. “I’m sorry.” His voice is raw. He bends to lift Xamira, striding the both of them out of my room, and leaving me to deal with things on my own. As I always do.

Chapter Twelve

Anellah

My head falls back as the mouths of my bonds descend on me. Casmir growls into my pussy, licking and sucking frantically like it’s a drug he needs to survive. Emrys’s warm tongue swirls over my hardened nipples while his hands explore my waist and slightly arched back. I can’t help the strangled moan that leaves me as I writhe under both of my males.

I’ve missed this.

My eyes shoot open; why have I missed this? I have them. They’re mine whenever I want. But something doesn’t feel exactly right.

Cas pushes two fingers inside of me, and the worried thought slips away from my care. He lifts himself to hover over me, watching my face as he fucks me with his hand.

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