Page 41 of Mayhem

You aren’t pretty enough. Thin enough. Desirable enough.

No one but me will ever want you. You are too much work.

Evan’s voice is screaming in my ear. Every thought I don’t want to believe is true plays on repeat. Evan had such a hold on me. He knew the things to say that made me feel lowest. He may not be here -or in my life anymore- but that doesn’t stop his voice from creeping in and trying to destroy me. I can feel myself getting tensed and my skin feeling itchy everywhere.

The last bell rings, and I am ready to bolt. I wait for Evie to get her stuff when I hear an obnoxious giggle behind me. I turn around and regret it instantly. Tits McGee is leaning over Midas’s desk, so he gets a nice look down her shirt. She is saying something to him, and he barely listens to her. He looks at me out of the corner of his eyes and smirks.

I roll my eyes at him before grabbing my bag and leaving the room. I reach the door when Mr. Labeau calls out my name. I groan before turning around and walking back to his desk. I hear more giggling as I see the girl holding on to Midas’s arm as he tries to walk out of the class. She is pawing at him.

Jealousy pokes its ugly head up and I want to rip her off of him. It’s not like he is mine, but I don’t want anyone else touching him. He tries to get her off him, but she won’t let go. Midas eventually sighs and continues to walk out.

Odin's standing beside Midas, but it doesn’t seem he is paying attention. I have never seen him zone out like that. Odin is usually the bubbly, eccentric one who always has something to say or makes a joke. I haven’t spoken to him since I asked for space, but I can’t help but watch him when we are in the same room. He draws me in like a magnet. He has this easy-going vibe, someone who is here for a good time. Odin is always smiling- most of the time it’s a crazed smile- but he is always enjoying himself. I have never seen the supposed dangerous side of him, but I can see it lurking underneath his persona.

Midas drags the giggling girl out of the class, and Odin follows him.

Midas

I walk into the hallway. The girl… I don’t even know her name, not that it matters, still leeched onto my arm. I look over my shoulder and see Serena standing before Mr. Labeau’s desk. Her body is rigid, arms crossed over her chest like she is trying to hide herself from him. My hackles rise, knowing she is uncomfortable. I want to charge back in there, but I hold still.

The girl is still all over me, her hands caressing my chest, and she is saying something to me. I don’t hear what she is saying, but I can guess. She is just like every other girl at this school, wanting to fuck the top dog. Well, every girl except Serena.

I internally laugh that this girl thought a few buttons undone on her shirt would keep my attention. No girl could hold my attention the same way Serena does.

I needed to know if it would bother her. From the look in her eyes, it did. A sense of satisfaction runs through me. I knew she still wanted us despite what she said.

“Do you like the sound of that Midas?” She whispers in my ear. I didn’t even realize she was that close to me. My eyes focused on the only girl I cared about.

I step away from the skank that is next to me. Her face drops, not expecting that response. She looks between Odin and me, confused. She takes another step toward me again.

“You don’t need to play hard to get. I am down for anything you want. If you both want, you can tag team me.” Her eyes light up at the thought.

I look at Odin, his hand over his mouth, trying to contain his laughter. Some girls don’t get the hint. “Get lost.” I bark out at her.

She pouts at me, then stomps her foot like a two-year-old that can’t have any ice cream. I narrow my eyes menacingly at her, and she finally gets the hint. I am not interested, and I never will be. She tries to save face by tossing her hair over her shoulder and struts away like she is the one who turned us down. Whatever, as long as she is gone, I don’t care.

I don’t bother watching her leave. I am more concerned about what is happening between Serena and the teacher. I have seen the way he has been looking at her. It makes me want to slit his throat and toss his body into a lake. Probably not the best place to hide his body, but it would satisfy me right now.

Zeus texted while we were in class. He wasn’t able to get her keys as we planned. So, we will have to try another time. I have my plan, one they don’t know about. Mine is guaranteed to get her to come crawling to us. I need to find the right time to unleash it. I have an idea, but I won’t know if it will work until it happens.

I am still so pissed off that someone broke into her house without us knowing. I live next door and didn’t notice anything. Whoever this guy is, he is dangerous, but no one is as dangerous as I am. He is just another name to add to the list of people that I want to kill. I still can’t figure out who would go to these lengths to get her. I have a few ideas but no proof yet.

Odin and I wait by the door and listen to the conversation between Serena and Mr. Labeau. I don’t trust him. He hasn’t been in town a long time, and there has always been something off about him. I haven’t discovered what’s wrong with him yet, but I will. A gut feeling tells me Mr. Labeau has a thing for my sweet angel.

He asks Serena how she has been. I listen to Serena’s response. She says she is fine, but he keeps pushing her. He lowers his voice, and I can’t hear what he says. Fucker is up to something sketchy.

Odin is tense beside me. Just like me, he is ready to bust in and beat his ass. I have never seen Odin like this before, especially over a girl. He has only ever been protective over Zeus and me, but it’s on a whole new level with Serena.

I continue to watch the interaction between Serena and Mr. Labeau. He is saying something to her, but I still can’t hear anything. The urge to barge in and stop whatever this is overwhelming. A need to keep her safe is brewing in me. That's not something I thought I would ever feel for a girl, but Serena isn’t like anyone I have ever met. I can’t explain why I have this protective urge for her, but I do. There is this need to make sure no one ever bothers or hurts her.

I have a policy of never hurting a woman, but Valerie has come close a few times for the way she treats Serena. She is jealous and vindictive. I know Valerie knows some people who could harm Serena if she asked. I’m just hoping Valerie hasn’t asked yet. Valerie always thought we belonged to her. Or at least I did. The bitch is dense. I have never wanted her.

This whole thing all started because of a stupid bet. I wanted to win and claim her as my pet, a toy to play with when I was bored. But I am starting to think that whatever I feel for her is significantly more than that. I have never had feelings for someone before, but if I had to guess what it is like, this would be it. I need to be close to her and I feel like I am going crazy when I’m not. To protect her and care for her.That’s a weird one for me.

I keep telling myself that it’s still about the bet. I never lose, and I don’t want to start now, but it’s more. I know it even if I won’t admit it to anyone. She has gotten under my skin in a way I never thought anyone would. I told myself I never wanted an old lady, that I could never love one the way they would deserve. Serena is making me think I could.

I can’t take my eyes off her whenever she is around.

She looks breathtaking today, wearing a pearl color dress with little purple flowers and a matching purple cardigan. So sweet and innocent, like an angel. I can practically see a glowing halo around her head. It just makes me want to corrupt her, turn her into the little devil I can see hidden in her.

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