CHAPTER 29

Smith

Sinking into the couch, I stretched my legs out in front of me and looked at my two best friends. They were more like brothers than friends. We’d gone through everything together and always had each other’s backs. We’d gotten through losing loved ones, losing money, and losing our minds a time or two. Looking at the two of them sitting across from me, it crossed my mind we’d never all gone after the same woman before. I wanted to say our friendship would withstand anything, but I was nervous. Our feelings for Joanie added a complication that none of us knew how to navigate.

I scrubbed my hands down my face and sighed. “I guess I’ll just say it. This could get messy.”

Chase leaned forward and rested his elbows on his knees. “Are we doing this like it’s The Bachelor, or…?”

Bear frowned. “What’s that?”

I waved my hand to dismiss another modern reference that Bear didn’t get. “Are we having her pick one of us at the end of the date?”

“I mean… Maybe we should’ve thought about this before we asked her out.” Chase gripped his hands together and I watched as they went white from how hard he was squeezing them.

“It’s a little late for regrets. Now, we just need to figure out how we’re handling this. It was one thing when we all went after her for sex, but this feels different. We’re fucking going on a date together tonight. What the hell is this?” I matched Chase’s pose and hung my head as the weight of everything settled on my shoulders.

“Shouldn’t it be easier to share her this way?” Bear shrugged. “I get that it’s not traditional, but if we were okay with each other touching her, shouldn’t we be okay with each other dating her?”

Chase and I were quiet as we each thought about it. I didn’t have a problem with Joanie sleeping with Chase or Bear. The only time it bothered me was when I felt like I was being left out. Dating was different, though. At least I thought it was.

“Were we all okay with each other sleeping with Joanie?” Chase posed the question and then answered it himself. “I was. I don’t know about you two, though. I can’t say why but it didn’t bother me, but it doesn’t. That’s never happened before and I don’t know what makes Joanie different, but I don’t hate the idea of you two sleeping with her.”

Bear held up his hands. “I didn’t care. I wasn’t exactly thinking about anything else when I was taking her, though.”

“But this morning? When you knew she’d just gotten out of bed with us?” Chase sat up and rubbed his jaw. “Not that we had sex. Smith cock-blocked me.”

“You cock-blocked yourself.”

“Honestly, it didn’t bother me. My hesitation with Joanie has been my own shit.” Sighing, Bear stood up and paced the living room. “Are we each saying we’re okay with each other seeing her? At the same time?”

Leaning back on the couch, I stared at the ceiling as I considered it. I didn’t know what sharing Joanie would look like but if there were ever two men I’d trust with my woman, it was my best friends. I knew they cared about her, too. “I guess so.”

“Yes.” Chase cleared his throat. “She didn’t kick us out last night.”

I sat back up. “No, she didn’t.”

“Do you think…?” Laughing at himself, Chase shook his head. “No. What am I thinking? Just…ignore me.”

“Do I think she would be okay with more than dating us at the same time?” I wagged my brows. “I don’t even want to say the words out loud, but I’m not going to lie and say I went to bed soft last night.”

Bear grimaced. “Thanks for that, asshole.”

“When you think about Joanie with me or Smith, how does it make you feel, Bear?” Chase swallowed audibly. “You know what I mean.”

Pacing away from us, Bear was slow to turn around and come back. “It’s fine. I don’t know. What do you want me to say? Don’t ask me this shit.”

“Imagine you walk in and I’m fucking Joanie from behind. What do you feel?” Chase pushed harder. “Do you hate it and leave? Or do you want to come closer and touch her, too?”

“If it was anyone other than you two, I’d fucking break shit.” Bear growled. “But you don’t think I’ve imagined it? When you followed her home and didn’t come back, of course I thought about it. I knew you were fucking her and I wanted to watch. I wanted to be a part of it. It’s fucking with my head, too, because I’ve never wanted to be in the same room as either of you while naked before.”

I unfolded myself from the couch. “I’ve imagined it, too. I could barely sleep last night because I kept wondering what it would be like if we both took Joanie. The sounds she would make, the way she would move between us. It’s fucking erotic.”

“Okay. We all admit it. The idea of fucking Joanie together is a wet dream. Dating her together seems fine, too. I think. Maybe I’m missing something, but I like our chemistry when we’re together.” Chase looked at his watch and lifted it at us so we knew it was time to go. “Are we all on the same page?”

Bear hesitated. “Honestly, I got distracted by the idea of being inside Joanie again. What’s the page?”

“That we don’t hate the idea of dating and fucking Joanie together.” Chase looked between us. “That we’re going to do some weird relationship where we share her.”