Page 40 of Scared Love

I give him a soft smile and say, “Yeah. I’m fine. I’m just

enjoying this weather.” He gives a smile back but he still looks worried. Like

something is bothering him. But I’m too scared to even

ask.

“I have to meet with my Pops tonight to discuss

some business. I’ll be gone for a couple hours. Will you

be okay?”

Of course I won’t be okay! Please don’t go. I don’t want

to be alone! But I also don’t want him to think I need him.

If he thinks I need him, he might use it against me.

“Yes Vince. I’ll be fine.” I say with a smile.

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“Are you sure? I can call and tell him we have to

reschedule.”

“I’ll be fine! I promise!” I say as I wave him off.

“Okay, baby girl. I’ll be back as soon as I can,” he says as

he kisses my forehead.

I watch him drive off and as soon as he leaves I feel so

scared and lost. He hasn’t left my side since I’ve been with

him. It’s just really quiet now. He’s gotten me to break

down every wall that I had up.

I keep waiting for his monster to come out. I keep

waiting for him to beat me. I keep waiting for him to come into the room at night and force himself upon me and to

take what he wants. But he never does.

* * *

I walk around the cabin, trying to find anything to

make him out as a monster. A monster is hiding in him. But

he never shows it. Unless I’m wrong. But there is no way

that I’m wrong.

I walk into the bedroom and the bed is nicely made. I start

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