Page 25 of Scared Love

He walks over and puts his hands around my face and his

forehead to mine. I flinch away from his touch and pull my

blanket up to my chin.

“Baby girl, I will never hurt you! You’re mine! I promise

no other man is going to ever touch you or I will kill any of

them that tries,” He says with a soft smile.

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I spent a couple more weeks in the hospital. I have bruises

all over my body and because of that the nurses are so easy

with me.I have whip lashes covering my back and the top of

my ass. It hurts to even move and turn in the bed.

Sometimes I wish I was dead. The pain is too much and I

prayed everyday that they would just kill me. But they

couldn’t kill Ian’s favorite Pet. Maybe everything will be

different with Vince. One can hope.

* * *

Vince hasn’t come for the past two days because he

said that he’s getting everything ready for me to come

home. It’s been lonely without him here. I’ve gotten used to his daily visits. I don’t know why but I trust him. Should I

trust him?

He’s the only man that has ever been so gentle with me.

Even with the slightest of touches. Like rubbing his thumb

across my cheek while he is talking to me. Helping me rise

up in bed. Every time he asks for permission to touch me.

What’s keeping him from beating me? I can’t let my guard

down for one minute. I’m scared but I feel safe when he

talks to me and when he is here,for a moment I felt like I

was going to be okay.

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I just want to feel okay. I wish all of this was some messed

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