Page 44 of Bound by Adoration

We had bleach and some other cleaning stuff, but would I be able to actually drink it? I hated the smell of bleach, and I would think my body would reject it right away even if I could get a swallow down.

Pills? I had no prescriptions, but maybe pain killers. Surely downing pills would be easier. It might be more painful for me, but if it would save my guys from seeing a gruesome sight, I’d do it. I could just take them and go to sleep. Peaceful. Not traumatic for my guys.

I just wouldn’t wake up, and it would be done. But how would Miles and his asshole kids know? Because that was the whole point of this. They had to know so they’d go away from here.

Flipping on the table lamp, I opened the drawer seeing my phone. I’d stuck it there earlier since I really had no one to call me because everyone, except Screech right now, were here with me. I’d already quit the bar via text, not knowing what the next day would hold for me. Therefore, I knew they wouldn’t call either.

I opened the notes app and began typing away.

After twenty minutes of writing, I put the phone back in the drawer and grabbed a small piece of paper and a pen.

I love you, Raid. I love you Liam. I couldn’t cause anyone to get hurt because of me. Please open my phone and send the first note in the notes app to the reporters and social media immediately. Make sure it gets spread wide, so they leave you all alone. Please tell Screech…

A shuffling noise could be heard outside the door, and I tossed the paper and pen in the drawer, shut it, and turned off the light, crawling back into bed. My heart thumped like I’d stolen a high-end purse and was running from the damn cops.

Shit. They couldn’t be done already. It appeared time wasn’t my friend in this area either. I’d have to come up with a way to finish my note without them seeing it until the deed was done.

It would be for the best. I’d hurt like hell leaving them, but if it kept them safe, then so be it.

A hard body came in behind me, the heat making me give off a shiver. Inhaling deep, it was the delicious smell of Liam. His arms reached around and pulled my body flush with his. I molded into him with ease. He felt right. So did Raid.

Yes. It was going to hurt to leave them. I did my best to hold back the tears that wanted to form.

“I can hear your heart thumpin’.”

My eyes popped open. Well, hell. There went trying to pretend I was asleep.

“Hey. Just a lot goin’ on and tryin’ to calm myself down,” I told him as the door opened again. Raid came to the other side of the bed and stripped off his clothes down to his boxers. I couldn’t help but watch him. He was a beautiful man. Fuck, I loved him. Loved them.

He smirked. “Like what ya see?”

Instead of answering, I rolled my eyes. “Oh, stop it. You know I do. Are you gonna crawl in bed with us?”

“I’m crawlin’ in with you. He’s just here.”

This brought a smile to my lips because Raid wouldn’t do anything he didn’t want to do. Which really meant he was opening up. Maybe just a smidge, but it was something. “Come on in,” I invited.

I’d never been sandwiched between two men like this before. The idea was intriguing. As he slid into bed, his heat hit my front as he leaned in and took my lips.

Giving in, I kissed him hard. His lips were works of art. It was damn hard to resist them.

He pulled away, and I caught myself trying to lean in, following his lips. “There’s so much more I want to do to you,” he growled low.

God, I wanted that. But how would it work? Sure, I’d watched videos, but never had it physically in real life. No.

Not yet anyway.

But there were some things I needed answers too first. If this were going to be my last night with these two men, I really wanted to figure out what was going on between Raid and Liam. They could have each other when this was all done … possibly. If that was what this was between them.

Since neither of them talked about it, I had no damn clue. But the possibility of them being together and not alone warmed me. At least they could be happy.

I let out a huge sigh. “Will you talk to me?” I asked them instead, and Raid pulled away, the small glow from the alarm clock giving us a little light along with the light from down the hallway coming from under the locked door.

Whatever he saw, he answered. “Anything.” Immediately.

He was probably going to regret saying that word, but it must be done. If I had a plan to keep them safe, they needed to be happy. Whatever this was going on between them needed to be ironed out so they could move on either way.

“Tell me how you two met.”

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