Page 49 of Bound by Passion (Ravage MC)

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NYX

Why was I here?

At the clubhouse.

With Raid.

And the entire Ravage MC club?

Great job, Nyx, staying in the background.Not only was I putting a huge target on my back, but the entire club would know I’d been with Raid. Did I want them to know? I mean, what was there to really “know?” Too late for that answer.

While I was damn good at keeping secrets, I didn’t know for sure if I wanted to keep Raid as one. We were just hanging out. No foul play there.

Shit. I was fucked in the head.

I blamed Raid for it. He scrambled my brain during sex, then asked me to come when I was out of my mind in calmness. Was that really sex, though? What we shared together earlier, it felt like a lot more. More meaning. More connection.

The slowness and time he took worshiping me, it was like he knew the edge I was on more than I let on. He knew that I needed him to be patient with me and help me get out of my head. I’d asked him to fuck me, but that wasn’t fucking. That was completely different. Something raw and powerful.

It was scary as hell, and I didn’t know how to process it at the moment.

And since I didn’t want to talk about any of the shit going on with me, I agreed to come here with him. Distraction was my plan, only I wasn’t sure if I was trying to distract Raid or myself more at this point. My head was not screwed on straight. Too many feelings. Too much of my past wanting to crash down on me. Too much of Raid caring and taking his time with me.

All of it was too much, and I needed a time out. I was going to take it, grip it with both hands, and hope like hell this wasn’t a horrible idea.

We drove through the gates, and music blared so much I was able to hear it over the roar of Raid’s motorcycle. People were scattered everywhere, and eyes came to us as we drove in the parking lot and got off the bike.

Nyx, you’re a moron. I thought to myself. Might as well have a neon sign on me saying, “look at me!”

“You alright?” Raid asked me, grabbing my hand and pulling me in close to him. His heat was intoxicating.

Looking up into his eyes, there was something behind them that I wanted to read. That I wanted to know. That seemed to be a very dangerous combination.

Then I remembered. “Yeah, I think. Did I tell you I saw your brother last night at the bar?”

His scarred brow lifted as he looked down at me with a smile on his face. “Nope. Continue.”

“He wanted to know who was making his drinks. He knew my name, and at first, I thought you told him about me. But I quickly came to realize you hadn’t, or he would’ve given me more shit. But I may’ve given my knowledge of what happened in the alleyway when that guy you had on his knees behind the club came in, and I nonverbally asked him to take it outside.” What the hell was going through his head on this one?

“That explains the message I got from him earlier.”

My heart began to beat rapidly. “Maybe this isn’t a good idea, Raid. I think you should just take me home and come back. Can you do that?” My head was jacked up. Did I want to stay? Did I want to go? Did I want this club to know me? Was I a complete moron for even getting on the back of Raid’s bike?

Only a few days knowing this man, and he’d screwed up my brain to the point I didn’t know what was up or down.

“Nope.” His eyes glittered in a sexy as hell way, making my panties dampen. “Just let loose and have fun. You’re with family.”

No way in fuck was I going tolet loose. I couldn’t afford that shit. Yeah, this was stupid.

His arms wrapped around me tight, and he kissed me deep, taking all the air from my lungs and making my body melt into him. God, when he took my breath away, it was like nothing in the world existed around us. Like we were on a patch of land and everything around us fell away, leaving us alone where nothing could ever touch us.

No man had ever in my life kissed me the way he did. And each time it felt as though his lips touching mine was as natural as breathing. Like we melded together into one. Heat rose in my chest as my heart pounded rapidly.

“Well, now I can see how she knew about Max.” A voice came from our side, making me jump in Raid’s arms.Yeah, good way to stay on your toes, Nyx.Raid had this unknown power of making me feel safe and not watching my surroundings. I couldn’t rely on that. I wouldn’t. Soon enough this would be over, and I’d be on my own once again.

Raid smirked at me then looked at his brother. “Guess you met Nyx.”

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