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“Once you’re ready, be sure to… to go out there and practice as much as you can. I told you in the past to be selective with the boys you pay attention to. I was wrong about that. Spread your legs for anyone you want. Go out right now–finish watching the video first–and lift up your skirt for the first boy you meet. The more you do it, the easier it gets!”

“Remember that this is all about you. Don’t resist. The better you make it for him, the better it’s going to be for you. Let him know it’s okay to make you gag on his c-cock. Give him ideas on what to do from what you learn in my videos. You can even watch together. Let him know how good it feels when he hurts you by squealing.”

“If your chosen guy feels guilty for giving you the treatment you deserve, make sure to encourage him and tell him you’re so grateful. Maybe use your tongue to lick his cock clean or let him take pictures of your used-up, degraded body afterwards, so he can think about you until next time.”

And now was the part she had truly been dreading. The lie that had somehow, over the months, become tangled into a partial truth.

“Fuck, it makes me so wet just thinking about degrading sex!”

There. It was done, and it had been easier than she thought.

Time to finish up.

“Well, that’s all the time I have for today. I will have a new video up for you tomorrow. I’ll see you then, on Triple L.”

The script completed, Charlotte flopped back, physically exhausted from all the effort it had taken to get through the video. Everything she said lingered in her mouth like a bad taste.

“Not good enough.”

Charlotte lifted her heavy head and gaped at the light-blurred figure that was Mamba. “What?” she exclaimed. She caught herself right away and amended, “What do you mean, sir?”

“Go through the script again and act as if you mean it this time. I told you to have passion. You raised your voice, but yelling out isn’t the same as meaning what you say.” Mamba lifted his hand and formed a fist, not as a treat but as a nearly encouraging gesture. “You have to mean what you say or no one will believe you. Your viewers will return because this is your first video after your break, but if you can’t maintain them, I will take your job away again. I think you don’t want that, so I’m giving you one more chance to film this right.”

A hot flash of fear swept over her. Desperate, she cried out, “I’ll get it right this time, I swear, sir!”

“There it is,” Mamba growled. “There’s the passion. I’m still filming. Begin when you’re ready.”

Charlotte grabbed hold of her emotions and pushed them to the front of her mind. She started to go through the script again, allowing her feelings to translate over to her recitation. It seemed to go so much faster this time and when she finished up, she was even more exhausted than before. The effort of speaking and constantly yelling out in falsified jubilation had taken an incredible toll on her.

A slow slapping sound filled the studio.

Mamba clapped for her.

Charlotte pushed herself up. “Was it good?”

“A damn good performance. I almost believed you.” Mamba approached, his silhouette gaining solidity as he passed through the wall of lights. “Do you want me to pinch your nipples and ejaculate on your face, Cuntflaps?” He laughed. “We’ll get there. Don’t worry. You have another question?”

She did, in fact. He was good at the game he played, she had to admit. “This will be going on my channel, once you reinstate it?”

“Yes.”

“Won’t it be taken down?”

Mamba folded his arms. “Sometimes, Cuntflaps, you aren’t such a dumb cunt. It’s a shame. Yes, the video site has a policy against nudity, but there’s an exception when it comes to educational videos. That’s why you find videos on breastfeeding, checking for lumps, gynecology examinations, and vaginal waxing tutorials. It’s why you can easily find videos of topless tribal women from South America and Africa, the video site considers it educational material. I have convinced them that, in your case, your videos will also provide education. You will be allowed to show your content without interruption or demonetization, as they will promote much-needed sex positivity to young ladies.”

At least I’ll be making money. I have to look on the bright side.

“As good as your performance was, it needs to be even better next time. It was a nice touch to spread your legs and show off your cunt, but it was dry. Next time, you will be wet during filming. It will glisten in the light. If you aren’t sufficiently wet beforehand, you will be required to masturbate while filming.”

Such a private action, broadcasted all over the biggest video platform on the internet.

“I’ll do better. I swear.”

“You had better.”

Chapter seventeen

Don't think, just do

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