Page 29 of Taboo

She starts to kiss over my chest and into my neck, softly biting every once in a while. Her skin is like silk against mine and the scent of her hair is even better this close.

I pull most of her hair into my grip, exposing her neck and chest to me when I tug her back to look at me. “You’re making me crazy. I’ll never be able to resist you after seeing you like this.” My words slip out and the smile on her face shows me what effect they have on her. My dick takes over, sending me thrusting in and out of her with a fury until I’m forced to pull out and send my release all the way up her back.

She manages to get another release in before I finish, so we both come to a stop together, looking into each other’s eyes while fighting for the breath that seems to escape us. I can feel her heart racing, matching my own while I come down from the high that she sent me to.

“Kali. I want you. Not just this, but all of you.” My deep grumble seems to startle her into reality. She sits up abruptly, looking shocked by my words.

“That’s what you say right now, but how will you be when we go back to the real world?” She moves off me with a quickness that sends a bolt of frustration through my body.

“What do I have to say to you to make you realize what I want?”

“I don’t know, I guess your history with keeping your word isn’t exactly clean when it comes to me.” She uses my shirt to dry her back before she puts her own clothes on. I toss my shirt over my shoulder after she throws it at me.

“That’s in the past.”

“I guess I’ll need to see that you’ve had a change of heart.” She starts pacing the small area, her face looking horrified as the realization of what just happened hits her. “I can’t believe I just did that with you.” Tears begin to fall down her face and before I can get to her, she’s crying out loud.

“Levi will hate me for this. How could I do this to him?”

“Wait, you were very clear about needing time to think about things. You two aren’t a couple, so what’s the issue?” I try to approach her only to have her walk away from me the second I get near.

“No we weren’t a couple, but that doesn’t stop the fact that I care about him. I don’t want him to ever think that I was using him to get to you, because in all reality I wasn’t. I really like spending time with him and I’m not even sure I want to stop. Jesus, this makes me sound like a whore!” She screams the last sentence before she takes off straight for the truck.

“No, it doesn’t. It makes you sound like a confused woman who cares about two men.” She turns abruptly to face be and uses her shirt to dry her own tears.

“Take me home please. I need to talk to Levi. And so help me if you try to beat me to it, I’ll never speak to you again.”

Chapter Nineteen

Kali

What have I done? Being near Noah has been something I’ve wanted my entire life and given the first chance, I take it, no matter the consequences to others. This makes me a monster and I’m terrified of what Levi will do once he finds out.

I can’t swallow past the lump in my throat while Noah drives us home. He’s still not wearing his shirt and that irritates me. “You have to put your shirt on.”

“Excuse me, but I’m not going to slide on a cum filled shirt just to keep your little secret. I personally don’t care if anyone thinks we just fucked.”

“Noah. You’re not going inside like that if he’s home.”

“Well princess, you’d better hope he’s long gone.” His attitude infuriates me and the lump in my throat turns into rage boiling at the base of my tongue.

“You’re such an ass.”

“Well, I’ve never claimed anything different and you know this about me, Kali.”

“I know the real you. The ass is the one you show the world just to keep from getting hurt.” He’s putting up his walls again, I can feel him. Only this time I’m not going to race to try to get him to stop. I just made the biggest mistake of my life by fucking him. Now I can’t think clearly to know if I’m coming or going.

How did I fall for two men? Both so different, yet both impacting me just as strongly. I can’t be with one of them without thinking of the other. This is no way for me to live my life and it sure as hell isn’t fair to them.

“Looks like you’re safe. He’s not home.” I slam the door of the truck closed before he has a chance to finish his sentence. I don’t have to be nice to him when he’s acting like this. In fact, if he can’t give me the time to clear things up with Levi, then that speaks volumes to me. I know where I stand. I must’ve been a challenge to him to get his hands on. He just wanted to prove that he could pull me away from Levi and mind fuck me at the same time.

“Look, Kali. This changes nothing. I still want you and I’ll stop at nothing to make sure you realize that.”

“Not now, Noah. You don’t know what you want.” I stop halfway up the stairs and turn to look at him. “Why don’t you really think about what it is you want out of this before you completely turn my world upside down once again.” And with that I turn and never look back. I close the door to Levi’s room and the overwhelming rush of guilt sweeps over me while I try to gasp for breath.

“What have I done?” I slide down the door until I’m sitting against it, my tears falling faster than I can dry them. I’m wrecked with shame for allowing myself to get into this mess and I don’t even know how to talk to Levi about what I’ve done.

I don’t really have time to come up with a plan before there’s a knock at the door. “Kali?” Levi’s voice sounds unsure on the other side of the door and my body is in instant panic as I crawl to my knees and hold it closed.

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