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Bianca

Ileft work the night I met Madame Lilith and returned home to find my roommates partying, again, and completely wasted with their place trashed. Because I was crashing on their couch, I had to wait until everyone left and went to bed before I could clean up enough to fall asleep on the couch. I called Madame Lilith back the next day and told her I wanted in, even though it felt like I was agreeing to sell my soul to the devil.

Madame Lilith was nice, but who’s to say the man I will sell my virginity to will be? When I call, she explains how the auction works and everything I will need to do beforehand. Then she told me to come in and sign the contract to get everything in black and white. I appreciated the business aspect of it all. It felt less personal and allowed me to separate this from who I really was. In a few days, I’ll be far better off than I am now.

Yesterday was definitely one of the strangest days of my life. After talking to Alex and assuring him things would be changing real soon, I headed off to a doctor’s appointment. They gave me a physical, then a pap smear. It was my first one and I had no idea what to expect, thankfully it wasn’t as bad as I was thinking. Madame Lilith explained while I was signing the contract that this would be to confirm I was in fact a virgin. The doctor was nice and didn’t make me feel like a piece of trash like I was worried she would.

Next, I went to my first ever spa appointment. While I was there they waxed me from top to bottom, which for someone who’s never had that done, let me just say, it was an experience. Then they worked on my hair, cutting a few inches off and coloring it a richer brown than it naturally is. It turned out great and I like the way it makes my eyes pop. After that, they gave me a facial, a manicure, and a pedicure. They were definitely checking off all the boxes to make sure I was shiny and desirable for whoever won me at auction. Besides feeling like an item to purchase which was kind of hard to get out of my head, it was kind of nice to be pampered for once.

When I was done at the salon they sent me to a lingerie store where Madame Lilith had me try on several different lingerie sets and photographed me in each of them. For the first time in my life, I felt sexy and beautiful. I had never worn such beautiful undergarments before and it gave me a little bit of confidence in what would be happening soon. The furthest I’ve ever been with a boy was when Todd Hillcrest held my hand on the school bus in the eleventh grade. He quickly moved on to someone who would give him a lot more than I was offering. I’m glad I waited.

During the day I saw a few of the other women who were going to be in the auction with me. They all looked just as nervous as I was which made me feel a little better knowing I wasn’t alone in this. I never thought about the other women who would be participating, but I guess to have an auction, you need more than one item for people to buy. All of the girls in the auction spent the night at the mansion where we relaxed and spent time together, if we wanted, while having a nice meal. A few of the girls were looking for something to drink that would calm their nerves, but per the contract, we aren’t allowed alcohol within forty-eight hours of the act. I’ve never been one to drink, so it didn’t bother me either way, but I definitely understood the appeal. Instead, I took a hot bath to calm my nerves, but it didn’t really help much.

Sitting here in a chair, Madame Lilith’s girls are doing my hair and helping to get me ready for the auction. They’ve applied more makeup than I usually wear, but I still look young. I guess that’s what they’re going for. I’m wearing a light pink silk robe over the white lace panty and bra set Madame Lilith picked out for me to wear tonight.

I’m still hung up on the fact that I’m selling a piece of myself that I’ll never get back. Does that make me a bad person? Will I go to hell for this? Surely there are worse things you could do. What about when I finally fall in love, how will I tell him about this without him hating me for it? How will I make him understand? I feel like I’m about to ruin the rest of my life, while trying to save it. When it all starts getting too much for me, I tell myself how this is going to change my and Alex’s world and block out the rest of it. This will set us up for life and I can make sure Alex is taken care of like our parents should have done for the both of us. They aren’t here any longer so now it’s my responsibility.

Madame Lilith enters the room I’m in with the other girls being auctioned and smiles at me as she approaches. “How are you doing, dear?”

“Me? Oh, I’m great.” I lie.

She laughs. “You’re going to be fine. I promise. All of my clients have been vetted and know the rules. They’ve all signed contracts beforehand and if they break it there will be severe consequences. Trust me, dear girl you will be well taken care of. I would never send you out to be hurt.”

“Thank you, Madame Lilith.”

Madame Lilith checks her watch and smiles up at me. “Are you ready? The auction is about to begin.”

I shrug, “As ready as I’ll ever be.”

“Remember one thing Bianca, you are the one in charge. You don’t have to do anything you don’t want to do. These men might be paying for your innocence, but it’s okay to make them work for it. Trust me, they’ll love the chase.”

“You’re sure?” I ask, biting my lip.

She points at me and grins. “Do that, you’ll drive them all crazy.”

I shake my head and laugh as Madame Lilith walks over to another girl to speak with her.

A little while later all of the girls are lined up as the auction is minutes from starting. We’re all in a room waiting for our names to be called. One by one the girls start going out onto the stage. I’m surprised by how fast the auction is moving.

A few minutes later I’m at the front of the line waiting to be called. Oh God, can I do this? “Bianca Amato,” is called on the intercom, and my eyes widen. Is this really happening? All of a sudden I want to cry and run out of the room. But I’ve come this far, leaving isn’t really an option. I remind myself why I’m doing this and pray to God this doesn’t turn out terribly.

“That’s you, dear,” One of Madame Lilith’s girls says, gesturing toward the door that will lead me to the stage.

Nodding, I walk out and past the curtain onto the stage. The bright lights are shining in my face making it impossible for me to see out in front of me. A luxurious couch is on the stage, but I’m too nervous to sit. Instead, I walk slowly, facing the lights. I drag my hand over the back of the couch, biting down on my bottom lip, trying to look sexy.

“Starting bid is one million dollars,” the announcer says over the intercom. As soon as he does, I trip in my heels, stumbling over my feet. Thank God I’m holding onto the back of the couch and I’m able to right myself quickly.

“Five million.”

My heart is beating so fast I swear it’s about to beat out of my chest.

“Ten million.”

What the hell? Who wants my virginity that bad they’re willing to pay a fortune for it? Madame Lilith is right, life-changing money.

“Twenty-five million,” I hear the announcer say then pause for a moment. “Going once, going twice, sold.” He shouts.

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