Still, I ignore him.
I don’t want to answer him. I don’t need to answer him. I don’t know how to answer him.
What would I even say? How would I even explain this? Not that I even have to. Why the fuck would I tell Ryan anything?
He chuckles to himself. “Going for a coffee run? I’ll take a –”
“Fuck off,” I snap back quickly. I probably should’ve just kept ignoring him and left without a word. But I just couldn’t hold it in any longer.
“What was that?” Ryan springs to his feet.
I go back to ignoring him. I check my pockets. Phone, wallet, and keys are all accounted for. Time to get the fuck out of here.
“You want to repeat that to my face, Logan?” Ryan says.
I don’t say anything more. I really don’t want to get into an argument right now. I just need to be alone with my thoughts for a bit and figure everything out. Ryan would not help with that at all.
I move towards the door, but Ryan is fast. He’s always been fast. He quickly closes the gap between himself and the door. Before I know it, he’s closing the bedroom door and blocking me from it. He stares me down.
The only way out is through him. And at this point, with Ryan pissing me off, that might just be what happens.
“Say it again, Logan. Fucking say it again to my face.”
“Fuck off,” I say, giving him his wish.
“What’s your fucking issue, man?”
“Just leave me alone, Ryan.”
“No, tell me what’s going on. Tell me why you’re running off like this.”
“I don’t have to tell you shit,” I say as I take a step closer to him. “Don’t think that just because you’re naked I won’t push my way past you, asshole. I’m getting out of here.”
Ryan briefly stops staring me down to look at himself. He must’ve forgotten that he was doing all of this in the nude. If we weren’t both so upset, this might be a moment we both break down in laughter. But no one is laughing right now.
“Well, don’t think that just because I’m naked I’ll be afraid to fight back.” Ryan returns to staring me down.
“Step aside, Ryan. Just let me leave.”
“Not until you talk to me.”
“Why do you care, Ryan? If I leave, it just gives you more Jade to enjoy when she wakes up. You should be pushing me out the door.”
“Oh, don’t do that, you asshole.”
“Do what?”
“We all agreed to this arrangement. Don’t be some selfish asshole about it now.”
“I’m not being a selfish asshole.”
“Yes, you are.”
“No, I’m not.”
“Okay, then you’re being both a selfish asshole and a liar. Just be honest, man. What’s the issue? What’s bothering you?”
“Nothing is bothering me.” Ryan is the last person I want to confide in at the moment. And it’s ridiculous that he thinks I would.