“Well, um… They kind of don’t know that I’m dating all three of them. At least, I don’t think they do. I haven’t told any of them, so unless they’ve been telling each other, then they don’t know.”
“Oh, Jade…”
“Hey! You promised not to judge!”
“I’m not judging! I swear, I’m not. I’m just shocked. This is the last thing I expected to hear when I called you.”
“Believe me, I didn’t expect it, either.”
“So what do you want out of this? God, I have so many questions.”
I swallow, feeling uneasy. I knew she’d have questions, which is part of the reason I waited so long to tell her. The fact is, I don’t have the answers. This is all so new to me, and I have no idea what to think of it all.
“I’m not really sure what I want out of it. To be honest, it’s been pretty overwhelming.”
“Maybe you just need to talk about it.”
I think for a minute. She’s right. I do eventually need to come up with answers, and maybe talking with her about this will help me find them.
“Okay, hold on. Let me get a bite of this pizza I just ordered and then you can ask all the questions you want. Oh and by the way, please don’t say anything to my parents. I really don’t want them to find out about this. You know how they are.”
“Of course, I wouldn’t dream of telling them. I’ll keep this to myself.”
“Thank you,” I say as I flip the box open and grab a slice.
“So why date all three? Why not just pick the hottest one?”
I think about this as I chew my pizza.
“They’re all equally hot. Seriously, you should see these guys. I’ll have to find you pictures. As to why I want all three, I can’t really explain it. I just feel drawn to all of them. Like I can’t pick. I enjoy my time with each of them, and I can’t imagine trying to choose just one.”
“What are you going to do when they find out? Do you think they’ll be mad?”
“I’ve been trying not to think about that. I really hope they won’t be mad. I mean, on the night that I met them, they all saw each other flirting with me. I even danced with two of them at the same time. They didn’t seem to mind.”
“Wow, three boyfriends at once. I can’t even handle one.”
“I know, me neither. You know me, I rarely stay in a relationship for more than a year.”
“Maybe that was just because a monogamous relationship bores you. Maybe you needed more than one.”
I pause. I’ve never thought about that before, but it shocks me enough to hear it that I think it’s worth giving a second thought. Something about this dynamic I’m building with each of these men is different than anything I’ve ever felt before. Maybe there’s a reason for that.
“I really should’ve talked to you about this sooner.”
“Yeah, you should’ve. And I’ll only forgive you for it if you promise to keep me updated on this. And come to me if shit gets crazy. I need to know the minute they all find out about your little secret.”
The thought that they will eventually all find out terrifies me. There’s absolutely zero chance that they’ll want to keep seeing me once they know, isn’t there? But what can I do about it?
I can’t choose. It’s either all or nothing, that much is clear to me.
“I promise. I’ll tell you everything from now on.”
“Okay, I want to hear more about them. What are they like?”
“Well, Ethan is like this crazy, outgoing, energetic person. He’s so much fun to be around. Every moment with him feels like a party. And then Ryan is just absolutely hilarious. And not in, like, a stupid, dad-joke way. He’s genuinely just funny. And Logan is probably the most reserved of the three but not in a shy way. You can just tell there’s always a lot going on in his head. He’s that person that you can talk about literally anything with.”
“Wow. Now I kind of want to date them. How about you give me just one of them? Ethan sounds hot!”