Page 111 of Lost & Found

It was so sweet really. He left for work one morning and started to coffee pot before he did so that when I woke up, it was to the smell of freshly brewed coffee. I got up to get me a cup and next to the mug he'd set out for me was an envelope. I opened it up to see a house key and note that said,

You already have the key to my heart. Here's the key to our home.

It was actually the cutest fucking thing ever.

“Okay. Sure. But now, I don’t ever have to leave," I defend myself to Jae who I know is just messing with me.

“Here I was, hoping for an engagement party or a gender reveal, but you lay this on me?” she quips, and I ignore her.

“I’m happy. This is happy news. The little stuff, remember?” I close the drawers to the dresser and walk over to the bed to sit at the end of it.

“You’re right, sorry for being a gargantuan rain cloud.” Her apology is sarcastic at best, but I know my friend is being herself and I can't help but feel so lucky I even have a friend to call up and talk about these kinds of things with. Even if she doesn't think they're as exciting as I do.

“I happen to like rain clouds," I state which makes her giggle.

“Then I take my apology back.” Now I'm the one laughing.

“So, I’ll see you this weekend?” I ask.

“Of course, can’t miss my monthly dose of Holli Jolly.”

“I literally hate that nickname; I think Kylan is rubbing off on you.” I fall back onto the bed.

“Girl, is he ever. Being cooped up in a home all day is boring. When he comes over to visit, that man just rubs off on me, and rubs off me. Sometimes I rub him off on me too.”

“Gross, hanging up the phone now, goodbyeeee,” I sing-song into the phone and hang up before I have to hear any more Jae and Kylan sexcapades.

“Jaelynn?” Jax's voice surprises me as he enters the room.

I check the time on my phone to see he's off work a little earlier than usual and I can't help but feel giddy knowing that this is going to be my life.

“Yeah. She’s gross," I say to him and he smirks at me as he pulls his dirty, sticky shirt off his fucking delicious body.

I have to press my thighs together to hold the ache at bay, not that I think he'd protest.

“What did she say about you moving in with me?” He walks into the bathroom and I can hear the faucet running.

I sit up to watch him scrub his face of motor oil and sweat. I love the way his body flexes as he does it.

“She said that I already practically live here and that she wanted us to have a baby or get married,” I scoff. Jaelynn is ridiculous. Rather, a hopeless romantic which surprises me because her and Kylan aren't even officially dating as of yet.

"Well, we already talked about our thoughts on marriage, which we are both on the same page for. Doyouwant a baby?” He turns off the running water and settles himself at the doorframe of the bathroom, leaning against the wood and staring at me with a very intent and curious look.

“I mean, I haven’t really thought about it." I shrug my shoulders. "I don't think I want kids right now, or maybe even ever. The world is too big and scary and I just don't know if it's what I'm meant to do. Besides, don’t you think it’s too soon?” I hope it isn't a deal breaker that I admit this to him. Some couples don't make it past these conversations because they don't want the same things and it wrecks them. But I can't be sure what I want right now, especially when I'm still trying to work on myself as an individual. And Jax and I are doing really fucking well.

Jax gives me a sincere and understanding look. His blue eyes forever burning little ocean-colored embers through my soul. I love how he listens to me. I love that we can talk about the important stuff in life and work through solutions and ideas together.

He finally walks over to me after my body heats up with his stare and I chew on the inside of my lip in anticipation of what his response will be.

"Hollis," he says my name as he sits next to me on the bed. "You know that I just want you to be happy. You deserve the fucking world. And I'm in this with you all the fucking way no matter what. If you decided that you want kids, then I want kids too. If you decide that being a mother is not what your heart wants, then I will back that decision just as strongly. Marriage or no marriage, you are my life partner and my soulmate. It's you and me for the rest of our lives and I will stand by you and by us till the day I die, babe. You just tell me where you want me and I'll be there." Jax's sentiment renders me utterly enraptured. I don't feel worthy, but he spends every day letting me know that I am.

He reaches for my face, caressing my cheeks and moving his eyes from mine to my lips.

"I would like to set the record straight and say that you beat any and all of my monster smut book boyfriends by about a hundred miles," I declare and his eyes go wide as he shoots his palm to his chest.

"Did you say bookboyfriends? As in more than one? Hollis Marie, I'm pained," he gasps in sarcasm, feigning heartbreak and I chuckle into his shoulder as I fold over to hide my smile.

"To my defense, I didn't mean to fall in love with them. It was their five-foot rippled dongs that did it for me. I just can't say no." I really set myself up for that one, because his response has me feeling heated and timorous.

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