Page 103 of Lost & Found

I feel so safe standing with him in this moment. I feel like all of my troubles and doubts in life are being tossed away, fading into the black of the universe and reigniting in flames of hope and love bursting around us like stars. I knew I always needed Jaxon. That’s why it was so hard to live without him. But I think part of me also realizes that he’s helping me find myself a little bit more each day as well.

He allowed me to be angry and distant. Though he never gave up, it gave me back the strength and courage to follow what my heart really wanted.

He lays me down on the bed and gently kisses me while doing so. His lips are soft against mine; the gesture feels like walking on clouds. Jax is intentional in letting me feel every slip of his tongue with the delicious pressure of his lips against my own. His hips lower over mine and he gently presses into me, I can feel every form of arousal we are both experiencing right now. He is so fucking hard and I’m so eager for him to be inside me.

But I allow him to go at his own pace because I know he needs this just as much as I do.

Jax finally breaks our dreamy kiss, and he looks down at me, laying on his bed for what feels like the hundredth time. He’s right, I do belong here and that thought makes me feel extremely giddy, protected, and at peace.

He grabs the bottom of my sweatshirt and lifts it up and over my head gently. Neither of us says a word as he undresses me, now moving to my leggings and my panties. Once I’m fully naked, he does the same for himself. Starting with his shirt, then his sweats, then his briefs. There’s no force of power or fight for control.

I have to close my eyes while he undresses because I feel a different kind of overwhelming feeling take over that I need to hold on to for a moment longer. When I know he’s staring at me, I smile and open my eyes.

“Oh God,” I blurt out as the image before me consumes my entire being.

“I might be no match compared to your purple toy, but I know I can fuck you better,” he quips with a nefarious smirk on his face.

What the fuck is he saying? His dick is fucking huge. There’s no way I’ll be able to adjust to his size. No shot in Hell. But I swallow my thoughts as he climbs on to the bed and hovers over me.

I feel the tip of his dick touch my belly button and suddenly I’m wondering what the hell I’m getting myself into. But holy shit, I want this so fucking bad. Every nerve ending in my body is screaming and I feel so much fire everywhere.

“Are you on birth control?” he asks as he dips his head to look between us.

Speechless, I shake my head no. I stopped taking my birth control after Liam and I broke up, I didn’t really see the point.

“Do you mind one of these?” He reaches over to his side table and pulls out a condom. Part of me winces thinking about what he might have those here for. I mean, obviously I know what condoms are for, but for who.

“I want you to know I didn’t plan to fuck you. But after that night when you let me make you come for the first time, I wanted them here to be safe. You’re the first and only girl who’s ever been in this house or on this bed, Hollis. The only one.” He places his hands on either side of my head and leans back down to kiss me again.

It feels too much to hear him admit that; it makes me feel special and wanted. And so many other things.

He rips the condom wrapper open with his teeth, spits, and then sits up to slide the condom over his thick erection. I stop him before he gets the condom out of the wrapper fully and I reach up to grab his dick.

“I don’t mind the condom, Jax but I-” I bite my lip as I squeeze the head of his dick. I see precum leak out and I gasp at the sight.

I lower the tip of his cock and line it up with the entrance of my pussy. Both of us stop breathing as we watch what I do.

“I just want to feel you for just a second, I swear.” I look up at him and he watches me. I slide him in just a fraction of an inch, and I can already tell how tight the fit will be. I pull him out and then do it again. And again. My cheeks burn as I feel him enter me over and over. Never all the way and it’s definitely not enough.

I can tell he’s growing extremely impatient with me as he feels the agonizingly painful ache of wanting each other. He makes me remove my hand so he can wrap himself up and then he lowers us back down to the bed.

My stomach practically growls at how fierce my arousal is, the electricity sparks through my spine and coils in my core.

Jax grabs the base of his cock, his hand dipping between us as his other holds him up over my body. He positions himself right where I had him to begin with and he pushes into me gently. When he’s able to let go, he rests his hand back into place next to my head and his fiery blue eyes meet mine.

“Tell me if you can’t take it, baby.” His voice is low like he doesn’t want anyone else to hear us, though we’re the only ones in the room.

But I nod my head and feel him slide in further, feeling the stretch of my pussy around him as he seats himself deeper inside me. I feel a tear escape my eye. You’d think I was losing my virginity all over again.

Jax groans, looking down between us until he’s all the way in. “Fuck, Hollis. You feel how fucking good that feels?” he asks through gritted teeth and shallow breathes.

My body lights with so much need but he just slowly pulls himself out before repeating the same gesture. After he does it a few more times, I feel like I’m adjusted enough to his size, and I start to get greedy. I dig my fingertips into the flesh of his ass and practically beg for him to move faster and harder.

He leans back to look at me.

“You want me to go harder?” he asks and I nod, my bottom lip firmly stuck between my teeth.

“Anything for you, Little Moon.” Jax sits back on his knees, his dick only pulls out a little bit to my surprise. He lifts me by the ass and slightly lifts me into his lap, my back is still flat on the bed but I’m tilted at an angle. This position allows him a bit more control over his thrusts and it opens me up to a new sensation as I know his dick will hit me right where I need him. He throws my legs up and over his shoulders; all of this is something I’d never done.

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