I sat there on my knees beside the bed, mind reeling, until my knees and ankles started aching.
Only then did I grab the edge of the bed and pull myself up. I kicked out of my heels then made my way into the bathroom.
Only then did I see how rough I looked.
I was a deer in the headlights, eyes huge, no idea what the hell was going on.
Truly, I didn’t.
But I reached for the tissues, wiping him off of my chest. After that, I swiped the mascara ribbons off of my cheeks.
Then, finally, I turned, pulling up my skirt, and looking over my shoulder to see my ass.
And there they were.
Pink handprints on my skin.
Reaching down, I touched the skin, feeling how hot it was to the touch. Even the slightest of brushes made it smart, though.
I would be feeling it each time I sat down.
Hell, I would be feeling it each time my pants brushed against my skin.
Turning, I made my way to the bath, running the water hot, and climbing in.
For the first time in I don’t remember how long, I didn’t reach for my phone.
I didn’t read comments.
I didn’t even post all day.
And, what’s more, I didn’t want to.
Something felt fundamentally changed in me right then.
My mind was so… quiet.
I wasn’t obsessing over what people were thinking of me, saying about me. I wasn’t making mental plans for the next day, trying to figure out of something new to do, how my followers would react to seeing me there.
I was just so… calm.
Present.
And… exhausted.
God.
It was like months of crappy sleep had caught up on me all at once.
I barely took the time to scrub a fancy little soap bar all over me, then rinse, before I was climbing out of the tub, drying off, and falling into bed, bare-ass naked, and pulling the blankets up.
The movement jostled the bottle of water, and I found myself reaching for it, uncapping it, and chugging it down.
Before, finally, falling into a long, deep sleep.
CHAPTER SEVEN
Scarlet