Page 47 of All the Promises We Break

The volume is just loud enough for us to hear but no one else. It takes me a minute to fully submit to the water. There are no words spoken between us, but her eyes tell me all I really need to know. She’s a mix of fire, sex, mystery, and a word I can’t use. I won’t use it. It’s the kiss of death for me. I don’t trust that word with women. I never have.

The jets are massaging every part of my body. The bubbles rise and fall from the surface. A brave Hayley disappears beneath the water and pops back up right in front of me. “This is sort of perfect,” she says.

“Yeah. The temperature regulates quickly.”

“That’s not what I was talking about.”

“I know. I’m not going to lie, Hayley. You scare the shit out of me.”

“You seem your usual self. I thought this was about having fun and seeing what happens. Has your mind changed?”

“Yes and no. This time has been amazing. These last few weeks have been great. You aren’t asking for more than we’re ready for. No lies and no promises seem to work well for us.”

“We don’t have a reason to lie.”

I reach out to brush a water droplet off the curve of her cheek. “No, but there are still a lot of things you don’t know about me.”

“Like what? I know your parents. I know about your job and what it demands.”

“My past, Hayles. You know, that massive elephant in the room.”

“Unless some ex comes riding in and blows everything up, whatever’s past is past. They’d have to be in my face for me to be jealous.”

“We’re at the point of you being jealous?” I ask.

Hayley crawls into my lap like she did last night at the lakeside. “This isn’t a promise, I’m just being honest. I’ve never done things with other guys I’ve done with you.”

Oh shit. Oh shit. Ask. You have to ask.

“Hayley, are you saying that you haven’t because you’re still a virgin?”

“Relax. No, I’m not. I meant I’ve never made dinner for a boyfriend or lived in the same space for multiple days in a row. I really like doing those things for and with you.”

My heart starts to race inside my chest. It’s the thrill of her being honest and saying what she said, but the overreaching anxiety is winning out. There’s telling Eli, Jack and Lil, Dylan, my parents. This would be not just some random girl, she’s Hayley.

“I don’t know what to say.”

“You don’t have to say anything. You confuse me but I’m happy right where we are, for now.”

For now.

I wrap my hands around the globes of her ass, pulling her tight against me. She presses our noses together as she massages my neck and shoulders. I close my eyes and allow our daydream to take over.

She kisses me up and down both sides of my neck and not just any type of kiss. They’re the ones where you feel the ghost of their lips until their tongue peeks out and the slow suckle begins. Each kiss arouses me more. My cock is as thick as it’s ever been. I tick her toward me with the pressure of my fingers. She slides effortlessly up and down my shaft even through the bit of fabric between us.

What I wouldn’t give to be inside her. I dream about every position, every photograph her body would make, every new discovery my fingers could explore inside and out. The more I dream, the harder I get. “Hayley…” I whisper.

“Please don’t tell me to stop. Not yet.”

“I want to fuck you now more than I ever have.”

“Then I’m not going to stop until one or both of us come.”

And there it is…

Her dirty declaration is my gas pedal to the floor. I pull her lips to mine. I don’t care that Eli and Dylan could walk out onto that balcony any time and catch us. At this moment, nothing matters but Hayley.

I open the clasp on the back of her top and the one at her neck soon follows. Her top bobs between us until I give us enough space to pull her nipple into my mouth. I didn’t have any doubts yesterday that her body was made for me and this moment has sealed the deal.

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