Page 117 of Cross To Bear

I pushed my thumb into her mouth, to keep her quiet and to focus her on my words.

“Your lips didn’t close entirely as I spoke. That says to me that you’re still open to this. Suck my thumb if you agree.” Her tongue worked against my finger, creating a delicious kind of suction that made my dick jerk in anticipation. “Nonverbal communication. It’s something you can use with him as well. Now, I’m going to replace my thumb with my cock.”

I pulled free before she could respond, her mouth opening in surprise, right before I plugged it shut, and then I had to just stop very still, lest the pulses in my dick overcame me.

“A little surprise keeps the person subbing off kilter a little, but not so much as to freak them out.” I stroked my thumb down her jaw. “You expected to suck my dick again, just not quite so quickly, but if I slapped your face…” Her eyes went wide and she went to pull away, but my hand stopped her. “See. That. You don’t want that, but you wondered for a second if I would. That creates a kind of edge that can make people hotter or colder. Let’s find out which with you.”

I balled her hair up in my fists, loving the way it revealed all of the bites on her neck and the fact I was messing with her carefully styled hair. I was making my girl messy and I think that’s part of what she liked about me. And that’s when I remembered how this whole thing worked both ways.

I was reading her responses, catching the way her eyelids fluttered closed and her head moved without prompting, taking me deeper. But in paying attention to her, I had to take note of my own responses. More than just the ache in my dick, growing harder and hotter with each suck. More than the satisfaction it came from having someone so fucking beautiful kneeling before me. It was remembering what brought us together that insane night when she claimed me.

When Maddie realised we were the ones for her, she just reached out and took me, not giving a shit who fucking knew, and I needed some of that same courage right now. Seeing her in that hospital bed had rocked me to my core, because… The guys said I was hyper-vigilant, always watching, always reading the room, and while they thought that was funny, it was for exactly that reason.

People I loved couldn’t get hurt, not when I was around, and I couldn’t let them get too far away, just in case they did. I’d wanted to go with Maddie to her parents’ house. There was nothing those two fucks could say to me that would get me down. I’d have driven her home, kept an eye on everyone else on the road, kept her safe… But she’d pulled free of my grip, just as she did now, stopping to catch her breath and stare up at me. I took in her teary eyes, her mascara running just a little and then smiled, my face feeling like it was cracking when I did.

“I love you, Maddie.” I brushed each tear away, smearing the mascara across her cheeks. “I love you so fucking much. I know I’m an insufferable prick, and I’m too intense and smothering, but I can’t fucking help it. Right now, I need to push my dick right back into your mouth and come down your pretty little throat. You do that for me, and I’ll spread you across the desk that I cleared for just this purpose, pull up your skirt and tear off your panties and eat you until you’re screaming so fucking loud, everyone in the whole garage knows what’s happening.”

I wasn’t sure if she would say yes or no. The war being fought inside her head was clear from her expression, her brow creasing, her facial muscles mobile, right up until everything went still.

She’d made her decision.

My grip on her hair tightened as she opened her mouth again, the invitation clear, and I was helpless to do anything other than accept.

I was losing control, my grip on her hair too tight, my dick stabbing forward, testing her gag reflex, but not pushing her too far. Even now, as my hips snapped, I thrust over and over, the rhythm taking control. It was like the feel of my bike’s wheels on the road, or the regular thrum of the engine between my legs. It was the beat of my heart, one that kept on ticking away for her, all fucking her.

It was a weird thing, taking such a selfish pleasure while all I felt was how much I fucking loved her. Perhaps it was this that reminded me just how much. That she could take everything I had to give and keep on standing, but more than that—

“Raze?”

A sharp knock at the door, a rumble of a voice had me stopping right where I was, teetering on the edge as my mind scrambled to identify the man stupid enough to interrupt this.

Animal.

One of the bikers that hung around the bar, we’d set up an approximate time for a consult about doing a new custom bike for him, but blokes said that sort of shit all the time and didn’t follow through.

“Razor?”

Another knock, because the persistent fuck couldn’t take the hint and that had Maddie moving to pull away.

But I couldn’t allow that to happen, not now, not ever again, so my grip tightened and I put a spare finger to my lips. Shh… that went unsaid. Her eyes locked with mine, fear and shame and desire all mixed up in one heady cocktail, right before I moved slowly, deeper into her mouth and then pulled back again.

I would’ve jerked free if she was freaking out. Fuck, I’d rather come in my own hand than in any part of her unwilling, but I felt it, the slow relaxation of her body as she fell into me.

“Raze, you in there?”

I fucking was, so damn deep, in my mate’s hot little mouth, and I couldn’t have given a flying fuck about what Animal had in mind for his new bike. He could come back another day because right now there was only Maddie. Only her.

“I’ll come by later,” Animal said, before shuffling away.

“Do that,” I whispered, as I gazed down at Maddie. “So fucking close, baby. You’re driving me out of my fucking mind. I should’ve pulled out, but I couldn’t, love, not when I’m inside you. This is the only place I want to be, the only place I find any peace.” A shudder worked its way up my spine, alerting me to what was about to happen. “But I need you to let me in now.”

She struggled to open her mouth wider, but I shook my head.

“That’s not it.” I stroked her cheeks, then her temple. “Not like that. Let me in, Maddie.” She stared at me in mute confusion. “One last barrier that needs to be overcome, but I can’t get over it until you let me past. Let me inside you, my girl, my mate. Let me in.”

I was gonna come so very soon, but the ecstasy was nothing compared to this. It was as if in this moment there was no me, no Maddie, just us. It came slowly, breaking over me, just like an orgasm, but this pleasure would never fade away. Instead it would just get deeper and deeper. Because she surrounded me, invaded me, pierced me through, the chaotic tumble of arousal, fear, need a drug I’d never be able to put down. Part of me wasn’t entirely sure until this moment, but right now I felt it.

She loved me. My girl loved me, just like I loved her. No, it was different. Mine was all hungry need, where hers was gentle as a becalmed sea, rocking me forward until it all came to a head.

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