Page 6 of All of My Life

However, as soon as the lights cut off, it was easy to see that the figure exiting the car was not a cop; not even close. Still, my heart started to beat painfully as the figure came closer and his features became clearer. It was almost midnight on a Tuesday, and neither of us had any business being out here this late at night.

I quickly stood up, stepping towards the railing, so that there was something protecting me from going over. I wrapped my arms around my waist, the cold finally hitting me when I’d felt nothing before.

“What are you doing here?” Chasin asked, his voice a rough blend of whiskey.

“I was just heading home,” I lied.

He took in my attire. “It’s freezing out here.”

My eyes shifted around nervously. “Yeah, that’s why I need to be heading home.”

“I’ll give you a ride.”

My eyes flew his way. “What? Why would you do that?”

“Because you really think that I’d leave you out here? Dressed like that?” he asked, nodding towards my white blouse and green skirt.

“Well, yeah,” I answered. “I mean, why wouldn’t you?”

“Get in the car, Jett,” he ordered.

“No,” I answered.

“Get in the fucking car,” he repeated, his voice sounding like shards of glass now.

“Or else what?” I bit out, ignoring the dangers of my situation.

Before I knew it, Chasin was glowering down at me, his height towering over me like an avenging angel. “You really want to do this here?” he asked, his eyes glowing like blue fire.

I could feel my breath catching in my lungs, the feeling making me lightheaded. My brain was screaming at me to run away, but the rest of me was damaged enough to ignore everything that was wrong with this situation.

“I can handle it if you can,” I said, goading the devil like I had nothing to lose.

Before I could take the words back, Chasin’s lips were on mine, his hands gripping my hips, lifting me to place me on the railing. One wrong move and I’d be flying backwards into the icy water, but I didn’t care. I needed this, and who better to give it to me than the one boy that hated me most in the world?

With Chasin’s lips on mine, I wrapped my arms around his neck, doing nothing to stop him when his hands reached underneath my skirt, ripping my panties into a useless mess. I let his tongue explore my mouth as the sound of his zipper cut into the night. I wasted no time wrapping my legs around Chasin’s waist, and when he ripped through my virginity, he swallowed my screams, taking me like I wasn’t bleeding all over him.

I let out a deep breath as the memory shook me. After Chasin had finished inside of me, he’d driven me home, dropping me off around the corner. I had admitted to sneaking out, so he had done me a solid by not pulling up to the front of my house.

After a long hot bath, I had dismissed what had happened as a moment of insanity; a moment of insanity for me, an easy piece of ass for him. However, no matter how much I’d wanted to forget what had happened and everything that he’d said, Chasin hadn’t been done with me. For a solid year, he would randomly corner me somewhere, taking what he wanted, and I’d done nothing to stop him. Those stolen moments had always come at opportune times, so I hadn’t minded. I had even gotten on birth control because Chasin had refused to wear a condom with me, swearing to me that I was the only one. Of course, I hadn’t believed him, but I hadn’t cared enough to do anything about it.

Then, four months ago, everything had stopped. Chasin had gone back to ignoring me, and I had dutifully returned the favor. Though I hadn’t had him as an outlet anymore, I’d just gone back to doing what I’d done before Chasin had found me at the bridge. Everyone needed something that they could get lost in, even if they did have the perfect life. Everyone needed to indulge in that one little thing that they kept for themselves only. If you didn’t have a little piece of yourself that was for you only, then you risked losing all of yourself to the world around you. Everyone always wanted something, and if you weren’t careful, that’s how you found yourself stretched thin, losing your mind one day.

So, what was Chasin up to now; that was the question. Four months later, he was acting like nothing had happened, plus he had kissed my neck in public. For all intents and purposes, I had been Chasin’s dirty, little, slutty secret, and he had been mine. Whenever we’d been together, it’d been a spontaneous moment of chance, and we hadn’t ever hooked up publicly. As far as anyone knew, Chasin and I hadn’t ever spoken to each other, and I’d been fine with that.

So, what changed?

That stunt this morning hadn’t been spontaneous. Knowing that it’d be around the whole school by lunchtime, Chasin had kissed my neck for a reason, only I had no idea what his reason could be. If he’d been any other guy, I’d guess that he’d been trying to make Sierra jealous, but Chasin Carver didn’t need to resort to that kind of nonsense. Plus, it was common knowledge that Sierra wasn’t faithful to Chasin, if that was even a thing for them.

As soon as the bell for break rang, I gathered my stuff, then practically ran out of class. Chasin sitting behind me had been another calculated move on his part, and I wasn’t sticking around to find out what his game was. I was so close to graduation that I didn’t need Chasin Carver distracting me with whatever bullshit that he had going on. When I left here, I wanted to leave free and clear, and I wasn’t interested in anything that might hinder that.

While I’d had no problem giving Chasin my virginity, I had no intentions of giving him any pieces of my future, and that also included my peace of mind.

Chapter 5

Chasin~

I watched her walk into the food court, already knowing that she wasn’t going to stay. Jett never ate her lunch with the rest of us, and she always grabbed whatever the cafeteria was serving, not a picky bone in her body. Granted, my hands could probably span the entire width of her waist, so it wasn’t like the girl ate a lot.

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