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I needed to find Cassius and get some fucking answers. If I didn’t get this shit under control, my life would implode. I wasn’t equipped to deal with a relationship like this, and I had no idea how to manage it along with everything else going on in my life.

Not to mention, we hadn’t been able to discuss anything without being under the influence of my pheromones. An omega in heat made alphas fucking crazy. I couldn’t take anything they’d said or done seriously. Everyone knew that.

What I would do if they kept saying and doing the same shit, even now…

I didn’t know.

That didn’t matter right now, not really. What mattered was finding out why my heat was thirteen days long and why they’d pushed themselves to the breaking point to take care of me.

I had to make sure they understood just how delusional they were being, and once I’d done that, I could leave and pretend like none of this had ever happened because I knew—I knew there was no way they could keep doing this.

None of it was real. They’d been under the influence of an omega in heat. That was all. It had meant nothing and to prove that, I needed to find Cassius. He hadn’t liked me before I’d gone into heat so it would be easy enough to get him to admit I was nothing but a job.

None of it meant anything no matter what they’d said.

All I had to do was prove it.

CHAPTER 45

Lucy

We were doomed from the start.

It was the only thing I could think about as I silently padded through the bathroom into Cas’s room, ignoring just how strong and steady my legs felt compared to the last time I remembered trying to walk.

The moment Liam had asked me to pretend to be his girlfriend, I should have known this would have happened – that it would ruin my life in way I could never have anticipated. They’d always said having an alpha during a heat could change your life, but I hadn’t believed them. How my body felt now told me I’d been wrong.

Again.

I paused on the threshold, eyeing Cas’s room and the bland décor. I’ve never been in here before, but his scent made it feel safe. I ignored that feeling and forced myself to step inside his private space.

Even in here I could smell the mixture of our pheromones and the unique scent it created – like some sort of creamy fruit and vanilla dessert with a spice that made my mouth water. It wasn’t quite clove, but close.

Smelling my own scent in here made it easy to go in his closet like it belonged to me. It should feel wrong, but all I felt was right as I pulled a grey hoodie off the hanger. Yes, I was going to wear this to make sure he was as agreeable as possible even if it was stupid. Alphas loved when an omega they’d fucked wore their clothes – at least, the ones they liked. But I was doing it for me too.

I wanted to be covered in his scent.

Sighing, I adjusted the hoodie after pulling it on, annoyed I liked how soft it was but pleased to see the hem reached my knees. I supposed this would answer one of my questions without having to ask him anything at all. If Cassius liked that I was wearing his hoodie, then I’d know he was actually into me, if not necessarily why.

I would know the moment he saw me whether he truly liked me or not based on his reaction to what I was wearing. Then I could ask him why – why he’d done it when he didn’t really like me.

Was it just because of Liam?

For some reason, that made my chest ache and I rubbed the spot as I went back into the bathroom to brush my teeth. I felt pretty clean otherwise, but my mouth tasted stale and I didn’t want that to distract me from any clues when Cas was so good at hiding what he was thinking and feeling.

Where the fuck was he? Were they normally gone this long, or had something changed? I couldn’t remember thanks to the way time had bled together – turning the whole event into one long moment instead of days and days.

I couldn’t even separate it by using the times I’d fallen asleep to measure the length because I didn’t remember falling asleep very often. I must have if I was still alive and well, but maybe it had only been small spurts.

That would have been really hard for either of them to deal with if they weren’t also in a rut. Liam might be a legacy alpha, but even he needed to sleep when he wasn’t in rut and from the looks of it, he hadn’t slept much at all.

Once my mouth felt clean, I went over to Liam’s bed and was shocked to see he hadn’t moved an inch. He was so aware of every little thing I did that I’d honestly thought he’d wake up by the time I was done.

I stood at the foot of the bed and stared down at him as he slept, not quite sure how to deal with this.

Liam was trusting me with his life right now and so was Cassius. I was in here, alone, while he was so deeply asleep that he had no idea I’d left the bed. That was just as shocking as the fact that I’d managed to wear out a legacy alpha.

Maybe I should get him something to drink and eat so that when he woke up, he’d feel a bit better. Those circles under his eyes were worrying me.

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