Page 112 of Curvy Dirty Omega

At least to me.

This was why I’d been so careful to avoid alphas when I could. It wasn’t hard when they didn’t particularly like me, but during my rare heats…I always wanted them – their knots and their pheromones.

My father had warned me over and over not to fuck an alpha during one of my heats, if ever. He’d warned me so many times that omegas got easily attached thanks to all our pheromones and we would become dependent on alphas if they managed to do even a halfway decent job at taking care of us.

I hadn’t really believed him back then, but I knew exactly what he meant now.

All we’d done was fuck, and yet my pheromones were all tangled up in theirs. The scent was insanely comforting. I wanted to keep it wrapped around me instead of scrubbing it from my skin and when I finally walked out of this house, I wanted everyone to smell it clinging to me so they’d know to stay far, far away…

So they’d know that I belonged to someone.

But reality had slapped me in the face, reminding me just how stupid I could be.

Liam hadn’t even been in the bed when I’d woken up, and the one who’d stayed was Cassius – the one I’d labeled as the most likely murder suspect in Gideon Valor’s case.

I was so fucking stupid.

“Lucy…Liam is downstairs making you food.” Cassius pressed his chin down harder on the top of my head when I stiffened at those words. “He was worried you’d be hungry when you woke up, and I agreed, but I would have made him stay if I’d known you’d be so upset to wake up without him.”

I didn’t want to believe him, but there was no hint of a lie in his tone, only exasperation.

“I promise it meant everything,” Cassius murmured against the back of my head. “Liam has been waiting for this for a very long time.”

How…

No.

Why?

I had to be losing my fucking mind all over again because I just didn’t understand. We’d only met the other day. Unless…

Unless he’d heard of me back when Frankie’s blog post had gone viral and we became an internet sensation overnight. She never posted any pictures of us, but Liam had the kind of money and power that could accomplish anything. It was a leap, but nothing else really made sense. Not when I had no memory of meeting him at any of the legacy events Frankie had dragged me to.

Maybe Cas meant Liam’s been waiting since that moment I ran into him in the elevator.

“I may not have been waiting as long as Liam, but it meant more to me than it probably should,” Cas admitted.

He draped his arms over mine and I flexed my hands on instinct, lacing my fingers through his effortlessly. When I relaxed them, they got caught between his fingers and my arms hung there, relying on his strength to keep them up.

I couldn’t stop staring at the way my hands looked against his as I tried to process his words.

Cas had stark veins and his fingers were long and thick, exuding strength and competence even if I wasn’t sure why it made me think of that. They were almost twice the size of mine, but my hands looked sharper than his.

My nails were longer, my bones pressing against my skin – almost as if they were trying to break through the flesh to fuse with his. Even though I couldn’t see him, I felt Cassius staring at our hands the same way I was – trying to decipher the true difference between us the same way I was.

It made me wonder…

Could he really weather how vicious and distrustful I could be? Could he deal with how damaged I was? Could Liam?

Or would I slice him open just as easily as all the others – until his shadow hanging over me disappeared?

Cassius seemed content to drape his body over mine, oblivious to my inner turmoil, and it was nice but I couldn’t get used to this. No matter what they said, we were all under the influence of our pheromones and none of us knew what would happen when all traces of them were gone.

“Do you know why Liam and I are…together?”

I flinched at his unexpected question. The depth of his voice rumbling against my back surprised me more than what he was asking.

“I might have been wrong about your motives.” It wasn’t easy to admit, but Cassius watching me get fucked by Liam as he shoved his cock in my mouth put a lot of my original observations into question. “If you were really together the way I thought you were, I don’t think you could have watched him fuck me like that and do nothing.”

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