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I take a deep breath, still trying to control my breathing, and roll over so I’m facing him. His cum drips out of me and I try not to think of the possible consequences at the moment as I stare at him. I wish I could tell him I’ve missed him, but I can’t remember what I’ve been missing. I do know this is something I’ve wanted since I was at Brighton, and I don’t regret a single moment.

Chapter 19

Ineed to finish my baking for Thanksgiving, and I’m sure Phoenix has things he needs to do. Instead, we’re lying here facing each other. His hand is cupping the back of my head while I trace his tattoos with my finger.

“Did you know I had a thing for you the entire time I was at Brighton?” I ask him.

He chuckles as he combs his fingers through my hair. “Yes, but only because you’ve already told me.” I stop tracing his tattoo for a few seconds before continuing.

“Right.” I’ve had so many conversations with him I don’t remember, and I hate it. The closer I get to him, the more it bothers me.

He leans forward and brushes his lips over my cheek. “To be fair, I had a thing for you, too.”

I lean up and kiss him before continuing my exploration of his tattoos. “When did you get the piercing?”

He chuckles. “That’s new. I got it when you were kidnapped this last time. The pain, it helped.” I hum in understanding. At least that’s something I can say we experienced together for the first time.

“Anna told me something today that made me start thinking. At the auction she was bought at she wore a red mask and she ran into another girl that may have graduated a year ahead of us in the bathroom. She was wearing a red and black mask. Do the different color masks mean different things?”

Phoenix doesn’t answer right away.Is he trying to choose his words carefully?“Yes, they do,” he finally replies, but he doesn’t expand.

“Okay, what do they mean?” I ask. He sighs and rolls over onto his back. He places his hands behind his head as he stares up at the ceiling.

“The white ones mean they’re selling, the black ones mean they’re buying. The red ones mean they’re for sale, the black and red ones mean they’re taken, but willing to share.” He takes a deep breath. “Silver means they’ve been purchased and not up to sharing. Gold means they are an owner and aren’t buying.”

My finger pauses in tracing his tattoo as I digest this. “Why would they bring those who have been purchased but don’t want to share?”

Phoenix breathes in deep and lets it out slowly. “Some people like to watch.” I freeze at this revelation.

“So, after the auction, is there a sex party?” I don’t know what to call it.

He nods slowly. “Yes, and those who have been bought have to have sex before they’re allowed to leave.”

I sit up and pull the sheet up to cover myself. “So, you bought me and had sex with me at this party? Did people watchto confirm this actually happened?” He sits up, watching me closely. I know immediately this is what happened. I scramble out of the bed. “How…” I squeeze my eyes, trying to recall the night, but there’s nothing. “How did that go?”

“Kenz—”

“Tell me. I need to know.” Wrapping the sheet around me, I stare at him and wait. He doesn’t answer, though. It’s the first time he hasn’t answered one of my questions.

“Phoenix—”

“I’m not talking about that night.”

I blink back the tears that want to fall. “Was it that bad?”

He sits up and runs a hand through his hair. “It wasn’t.” He doesn’t elaborate. I choke on a whimper. I know I was a virgin up until that night.

“You took my virginity,” I state.

His eyes are full of… Regret? “I did.”

“I… I need to go finish baking.” He lets me pull on my clothes and leave.

Oh god, all those years at Brighton, I wanted him. I wanted him to be my first. But not like that. People were watching us? Why did we have to prove we had sex?

When I walk into the kitchen, I stop and try to take in everything Phoenix just revealed. Thinking back to the conversation Anna and I had earlier, I wonder if that’s what she meant about what came after she was bought.Did the man who bought her have to have sex with her in front of everyone, too?

I wonder if Rex is still with her or if she’s taking a nap. I pull myself together as quickly as I can and walk towards her room. Her door is open, so I stop just inside and see she’s sitting in a chair overlooking the grounds.

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