Page 67 of If You Fight

I closed my eyes, embarrassed that I’d let myself think Ryder would ever be unfaithful to me. “I didn’t want to talk about it. Ever.”

His lips grazed mine before brushing my ear as he whispered, “Then we won’t. I’d much rather talk about a million other things. Or not talk at all.”

The smile in his voice made me open my eyes, and as he pulled back, I saw that look of desire all over his face that made him so sexy. I loved how much he wanted me, even now that my pregnancy had begun to make my body much softer and rounder than usual.

“I don’t want to talk either.”

He slid his hands up under my sweater to lift it over my head before unhooking my bra. Tossing it away from him, he cupped my breasts in his palms and smiled.

“You look so beautiful standing there looking up at me like that. It reminds me of that night in my room when you brought me the chocolate you made. I felt like the luckiest guy in the world, you know that?”

I ran my finger along the top of his pants and teased the head of his cock. “Because I made you chocolate?”

He winced as I took hold of him and began stroking. “No. Because you had that same look in your eyes. Like I was the only man in the world you wanted inside you.”

Slowly, I dropped to my knees and flicked my tongue along the length of his cock, all the while staring up at him to see the effect I had on him. His eyes rolled back and his face grew relaxed before he let out a soft groan.

“You were the only man I wanted inside me. For weeks and weeks, I’d wanted to touch you, to feel your body against mine.”

Ryder opened his mouth to say something, but I slid my mouth down the length of him and heard him fall silent, except for that sexy sigh he made whenever I sucked his cock down to the base. Just hearing that sound made me want him inside me.

And then he buried his hands in my hair and tightened them slowly until an erotic mixture of my pain and his pleasure filled me as he hoarsely groaned, “Oh, baby…God, I love the feel of your mouth on my cock.”

Nothing was more masculine than when he told me how much he loved me sucking his cock. Not the way he fought and not even the way he protected me. I gazed up at him and watched the pleasure wash over him as inch by inch I slid him into my mouth and then slowly eased up to the tip of his cock, sucking the head between my lips in that way I knew he loved.

His hand pushed down on my head, forcing me to take all of him, and he fed me his cock as I closed my eyes and he set the pace. Above me, he grunted his desire and moaned with every swipe of my tongue across his skin, and I loved every second of it. I didn’t care that with each tug of my hair, pain fanned out across the top of my head. All I wanted was to take him to that place that only I got to see.

That place where he wasn’t my father’s employee or a fighter in the ring. He was just a man in love with me who I could bring to his knees simply by sucking his cock.

“Fuck…don’t stop…right there. Look up at me. I want to watch you take it all,” he moaned as I felt the first twitch of his release against my tongue.

Grasping the base of his cock, he held it tightly as he came, flooding my mouth as he shuddered. I could have watched him like that forever, spellbound by how beautiful he looked because of what I’d done.

When he finished, he knelt down in front of me and kissed me softly on the lips. “I swear to God every time you do that, I think I’m going to black out. Now’s your turn.”

I shook my head and smiled. “Maybe in a little while. I just want to enjoy how incredible you look right now.”

He grinned a guilty smile as he traced his finger across my lips. “I love you, Serena. You don’t have to worry about me ever wanting another woman. You’re all I want.”

“Because of what my mouth can do?” I asked with a giggle.

“No,” he answered, shaking his head. “Because of what every part of you does to me.”

He looked at me like I was the only one in the world that mattered to him, and I wondered how I could be so stupid as to think that he’d ever want someone like that Kitty.

***

Even though Ididn’t want to let my jealousy get the best of me, I couldn’t help it. No matter how I tried, I couldn’t get the image of Kitty draped all over Ryder out of my mind. Every time he left to go to a fight or train, my mind filled with thoughts of them together.

“I’ll be back late tonight,” he said before kissing me goodbye.

“Okay,” I said sweetly as I decided this would be the night I found out if my suspicions were correct or if I was just being stupid and irrational. “I’ll try to wait up.”

Ryder smiled. “I like when you do, but if you’re too tired, don’t push it.” He cupped his palm over my belly and added, “You’re sleeping for two, you know.”

When he said cute things like that, I wanted to believe that nagging feeling in my gut was totally wrong. That he would never betray me like that.

“I don’t think that’s how it goes,” I said as he lifted my t-shirt to press a soft kiss to my skin.

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